Saturday, February 1, 2014

कुछ दूरी से.....


















कुछ दूरी से देख लेती जो
मुझे मिलना नहिं था .…
चंद सांसें मिल जाती  शायद
उलझाना नहीं था ...

घडी भर को ठहर  जाती धरती
बरस जाता चाहत...
भीग जाती मैंने छिपके कंही
मिल जाती राहत...

तुम ऐसे ही किसी बात पे जो
हस लेते पल भर...
चांदनी  बिखर जाती आज
मुएँ अमावस पर...

बेखबर मुझसे जो तुम, कोई
खबर नहीं  है ...
गम में हे या खुस है ज़िंदगी कोई
असर नहीं है ...

कुछ दूरी से देख लेती जो
मुझे मिलना नहिं था .…

चंद सांसें मिल जाती  शायद
उलझाना नहीं था ...

Tuesday, January 28, 2014

पानी।।।



पानी पर कंहा कोई दास्तान बयां होती है …
वह तॊ पानी हे... बेज़ुबां बहती रेहती है …

कोई जो समझे तो उलझसा जाता है...
जिस्म नहीं रुह तक भिगो लेता है...

इक समंदर को तलास्ति शायद
बारिश को भी ये तरस्ती बेहद ...

मुझे तो ये चाहत कि तरहा लगती है...
जो तुमसे शुरू और तुमपे खत्म होती है....         

Wednesday, December 4, 2013

सुनो… ये कुछ तुम वाला फीलिंग्स हे.....





सुनो… ये कुछ तुम वाला फीलिंग्स  हे.....

पत्ता नहीं, तुम्हे कैसे सम्झायुं
ये प्यार नहीं है .… खाली एक तुम वाला फीलिंग्स है 

प्यार बहत भारी हे.… 
मेरी समझ से परे हे.… 
तुम समझते हो शायद… 
किसीसे प्यार करते हो शायद… 

"एक बार नहीं, कईं बार होता हे"
"ऐसे थोडे ना  होता हे"    

मैं उलझना नहीं  चाहती 
मैंने प्यार करना नहीं  चाहती…  

"पर ये क्या हे… "
"तुम ऐसे क्यूँ हो…"

मैं तुमसे प्यार नहीं करती हूँ 
बस  इक "तुम वाला फीलिंग्स" मैं जीती हूँ.…     

Friday, October 14, 2011

Rest In Romance Jagjit Singh!!!


A Relationship I can talk about...It's worth sharing, B'coz it's all about JS.. 

I am an absolute movie-buff like my parents and in many ways my parents made me see all the movies which impact my life in many positive ways. I was in standard III, when for the first time, I saw 'Arth' movie with my Bou (mom). There are many beautiful aspect of this complicated movie, which touched me in that tender age. And the voice of the Lead Male Singer of the movie is different... forever His voice feels like a healing ointment, feels like lullaby, feels like much wanted Pampering, feels like a Distant Calling and sometimes feels like Silence.... My first introduction with a Character whom I called JS with love... 




When I used to listen Tum itna jo muskura rahe ho, kya gam he jisko chhupa rahe ho.. I used to drench my pillow with tears without having any sadness here and  there... and when the player switched to Jhuki Jhuki Si Nazar Bekarar Hain Ke Naheen and to Tere Khushboo Mein Base Khat... my pillow used to get drenched further... that was when, I was Twelve.... and now when I am in my late Twenties, the reaction is the same- Drenched Pillows... 

Unknowingly, JS made me fall in love with Gazals... 

In teenage, I was such a Riot to outsiders.... Non-stop talker, short tempered, restless fickle minded Stupid Silly girl. But an exact opposite @ home, behind the close doors, I was all quiet,all settled, a Simple Silly girl who loved to lay down on the old high wooden bed (where from she could see the moon through the open window) till late night with her sister to listen to her New found voice of Romance. Beyond Time (1987) with Chitra Singh, Someone Somewhere (1994) with Chitra Singh, Face To Face (1996), Sajda (1991) with Lata Mangeshkar, Kahkashan, Mirage and many more. Initially Mamani (elder Sister) used to make faces. I bored her till death with Gazals of JS.... used to explain her the meaning of each line by rewinding the tape times and again..lately she fall in love with JS too. I think She is the one who tolerate me the most Now and Then...  




I don't know how many kids at that age of mine ,will gonna appreciate watching Saath Saath, Bazaar and Avishkaar like stuffy movies... but I have seen them all. It was not because I was very mature or thoughtful, it was just that I knew that the male character gonna sing Gazal for his lady love with lyrics having Meaning of Life...Like JS... With no offence to the fabulous character played by the actor in each of these movies, I used to find JS taking the center stage without playing any character in those movies :) Now comes the heights- due to a JS crazy me for many years my parents and sister knew there Birthday and Anniversary gifts without any guesses- music albums of  JS. (when you have less pocket money, you learn to share things LOL)... Unforgettable (2001), Saher (2002), Aaeena (2006), Life Story (2006), Love Is Blind (2006), Stolen Moments (2008) Insight (2007) In Search (2007) all have been gifted ;) And more over, JS crazy I can relate each occasion, each emotion to JS songs, few instances;

My first Day in college....Dosti jab kisi se ki jaye
My first Ride in bike .... Hosh Walon Ko
Kumar Purnima Celebration ...Kal chaudvin ki raat thi
First Rain of the season... Ye Dolat bhi le lo
Summer green mango's afternoons... Tum ko dekha to ye Khayal aya
First time Going Distance from Home... Tum itna jo
Lonely nights of MBA... Koi Fariyaad
House hunting in Mumbai ... Baat Niklegi to
Job changes ... Na Mohabbat Na Dosti Ke Liye 
In Prayerful moments.... Mera Jivan teri Saran


and the list just can go on and on......


I believe learning of life comes from many sources in a life time (so what that few of them can be absolutely Filmy) and some of them are constant sources .. JS is a constant source for me. He is a voice of Romance in Divinity for me and for many of you may be (that's includes my elder Sis' too :) I am not his fan, I am his Shagird...
      
And I do relate one of His many songs to Him in recent time ...

                              " Haath chhute bhi to, rishtey nahi chhoda karte
                                       Waqt ki shaakh se, lamhe nahin toda karte
                                               Jiski aawaaz mein silwat ho, nigaahon mein shikan..
                                                         aisi tasbir ke tukade nahi joda karte.................."





[ P.S. Rest in Romance JS, Rest in Love]


With Love, 
Soma

Saturday, June 11, 2011

Tale of the Rain!!!

It's About This Season....
It's Rain.... Pouring outside from last few hours continuously!!!

Something so intoxicated about it....



It has the music, the smell, the feel and yes the Look of it !!! With a touch of it, it makes everything Beautiful in this Earth. The first Kiss of Monsoon brings back the Greenery, the youth to the Earth!!! No... for sure... I am  not gonna right an essay on Rain. But then I talk to this Blog about what I love and whom all I love. If it is about Me and my Life, how can possibly " The Tale of Rain" will be left untold.

Yes, I am crazy about it and my Vampire Soul can possibly enjoy a year with Twelve Months of Rain !!! (I have quoted this earlier in my Facebook)

My home town being a hilly place, is really good during Rain,  It's tipper-tapper through out the season there. I remember, in my childhood  Mamani (elder sister) n' I used to share the bedroom of Maa (Grany) and Jeje (Grandpa). There were Adj-best roof, Tin plates and many other things, laying out side of our house, which used to give a prefect base to Rain to play the music... In the silence of the night, It acted like a lullaby to me! I used to cling to Maa to get some warmth out of her old Kambal (an orange-black woolen cross-stitched kambal) though I had my own :-). Coincidently my current house (rented) @ Navi Mumbai is having a Tin roof on the Portico which has reminded me those Musical days this Rain... It's very funny that the music lost has recreated by the Nature, but The People whom I have lost, gone for ever!!! 

And how can any of us forget the fun of placing the paper boats and the floater Chapals  in the running water and then run madly behind it to get it back as if our life going away from us... That Silly Childhood knows very well how to get happiness out of nothing which are adult grown-up mind always get confused with!!!




When the Rain came few years later to the above said memories got created, my the then Childhood has lost in Alice's Wonderland and I have started to be considered as a grown up kid- a teenager!!!  What a Mess I was (nothing better now). When Friends talks about their first Kiss of their teenage and first affair, the only thing I remember is my first Rain dance, my first Rain affair. Yes Rain Dance, being an absolute Filmy creature I love dancing in Rain like any other Bollywood Heroines (With No offence to the Beauty and Charm of Madhuri n' Madhubala, I never consider myself less ;-) !!! When the lonely afternoons of that Small hilly town got surrounded by Dark clouds, my Brain used to stop working to certain extent, wherever I was, the only urgency was to escape to the open third floor terrace of my house, which is huge enough to play cricket and exclusively abandoned for Monkeys  n' few similar creatures like me ;-) I know how Peacock must be feeling by seeing the dark clouds, who knows better than me, both of us are Untrained and Wild!!!



Pls. don't think that this paragraph gonna hint you on my current age, it will gonna only share the Mumbai Rain with you LoL (I have left my age in my Home town :-) Mumbai Rain is like Love! It makes me cry, it makes me laugh, It makes me feel loved and cared, as if someone has sent it by Post from My Home town to remind me the things which I consider MUST for me. It reminds me to be Childlike and to run after that Paper Boat which can be as precious as Life without any reason (Stop judging too much Silly!!!), It reminds me to Dance like a Peacock when the Black Clouds are around (Uncertainty is always Wild ;-) and Yes it brings back the Greenery to Me every time it comes!!!  

Thanks for Keep Coming Back Every time Rain,
Thanks for visiting me this year Too Buddy...
It's worth to wait for You !!! And you know how much I mean it ;-)

With Pouring Rain Love,
Soma


[P.S. For those who don't like Rain too much, pls. do consider me as blind as any other Lover, who can't see any thing wrong in his/her Beloved!!!]


  

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Happy Mother's Day!!!

Today it's Mother's Day! Do you know that...
No answer! Now a day's you don't even nod while I talk... But It's Ok. 
Leeme talk today! 

Bou (Mom'), we never celebrate Mother's day as such. But with you every moment is a Celebration of Life. Starting from your lullaby (that you sing on demand of late, as Mamani n' I cry every time you sing that to us) of our childhood to our late night talk in our teenage (over the Hot cups) every moment of your two daughters, you have knitted so well. You know that the elder one needs to tell you everything, so before she enters into the house, you start giving that anxious look to her ,that 'hey I am ready , tell me what's happen today'. On the other hand, the younger one is a damn introvert, so you talk to her through her silence and can capture her mood from the sound of her bike. You are the Talkative Best friend of the Elder and the Sunset Partner of the Younger. Bou, do you remember that Rs.100 Rain Dream of your's , the way you have described that, Bapa, Mamani and I, we laughed till our belly hurts in that Rainy mid night. And I bet you are missing those random trip to Puri Beach in every summer holiday (I have not been to Puri since long now!!! ). 



When your Badki got married, you taught her the Oriya food recipes over phone (without giving a second thought for the STD bills) and when I went out for my studies, you used call me to tell 'hey it's raining here' and kept standing out under the portico to make me hear the sound of the Rain (again on STD calls). It's you who made both of your daughter fall in love with Rain n' Moon Light and yet made practical enough to understand the impact of the changing seasons. You have shared your Best moments to guide us and the Worst  moments to Protect us. You have tell us the Story of the Unknown and the Victory of the Queen. And  nevertheless left us in a World where you are every where now. Every source of  love becomes You. "Thanks" is not the right word I know. No need to make that face, as I am not gonna say that. But wanna ask you something....  




Is the distance hurts you, the way it is hurting some of your close one?
Is it bother you, that Bapa coming home very late, Kaka is not keeping well and Gopu is in his 10th Standard!!! Do you feel it anymore, while Moti cry like a kid when she can't talk to you and I feel restless at times!!! 

No answer! Now a day's you don't even nod while I talk... But It's Ok. 

[P.S: I Love You!!! ]   

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

A Goodnight Message!!!



It's My Papa's Goodnight message for Me ,Just wanna share with you all :)




People are unreasonable, illogical & self-centered. Love them anyway...

If you do good, people accuse you of selfish ulterior motive. Do good anyway...

If you are successful,you win false friends & true enemies, Succeed anyway...

The good you do today will be forgotten tomorrow. Do good anyway...

Honesty& frankness make you vulnerable, Be honest & frank anyway...

What you spend years in building assets may be destroyed overnight. Build anyway...

People really need help, but may attack you if help them. Help anyway...

Give the world the best you have &  you will get kicked on the teeth. Give the world the best you have got ----ANYWAY -FOR-ANAND (High level happiness)

Good Night n' Loads of Sweet Dreams!!!